Those of you who read my blog regularly will have seen that I haven’t been in a good place for a while now, I posted about losing my sparkle last October and I have been continuing to feel like that and it has only worsened over the last two months, worsened by circumstances which I won’t go into just yet.
I started counselling a few weeks ago because I was at rock bottom and just couldn’t see anyway forward, I think it is helping me. It has felt good to talk to someone and just let everything out. So we will see how that goes…
These past few days have been awful though, I’ve had a job to stop blubbing I’m putting it down to the time of the month but seriously how many times of the month can you have in one month? 😉
Anyway today I dried my tears and dragged my sorry self to Slimming World. I stopped going two years ago when I stopped smoking and I have put a hell of a lot of weight on. I’m not pleased with myself, in fact I hate myself more now than ever before but I walked through that door and took the first steps!
I have a really long way to go but I’m going to do this! I am going to get better, feel better about myself, lose weight, get more active and learn to love me for who I am.
Today I weighed in at 17 stone 0½ pounds, which is not quite as heavy as I was before but almost! I feel fatter than ever before and I’m very disappointed that I have got back here but I am taking action now and I know if I have control and organisation then I can get to where I want to be and hopefully stay there this time.
Along with losing weight I really need to get more active, not necessarily to help me lose weight but to help with my depression… I know it helps me, it clears my mind so much and getting outside each day is so good for me! I’m not going to catapult straight in and say I’ll start running three miles a day again, I’m going to build up and just keep getting more and more active as the weeks go on. So my first target is to walk over 10,000 steps every single day.
Weight – 17 stone 0½ pounds
35.2 = Obese
Exercise goal for the next month
To walk over 10,000 steps per day
I was going to stop blogging but I think I need to blog now more than ever. I hope you’ll follow my journey and give me a bit of encouragement, let me know if you are on the same journey as me so I can follow your progress too xxx