I’m not going to lie I’ve been finding life pretty hard lately, my mood has been so low and I’ve been a nightmare to live with… I’m not sure how James has managed to put up with me! Because of this I have really not had the will to blog much at all… I’ve been finding it so hard to sit and write, my head has just been so full of darkness that I just couldn’t find the words. But this morning I have managed to find a bit of light so here I am.
You might have noticed that I stopped doing the 365 project and made my personal Instagram account private because Boo has got to the age now where she really doesn’t want her life shared so I have had to respect that. The 365 project was such a huge part of my life and the blog that it has really stopped me in my tracks a bit. I was going to just completely stop blogging at one point but I love it too much for that. This blog will be 9 years old in September this year and I think I would be lost without it.
Spring is usually my most favourite time of year so I am really going to try and focus on that and all of the positive things happening in my life right now because it really isn’t bad and I really shouldn’t be feeling like I have been.
Yesterday was Mother’s Day and Liam (my oldest) surprised me with a visit which really just made my day! I was treated like a Queen really for the whole of the day by James and all of the kids. I have a wonderful family and I really need to try hard to get myself out of this dark place so I can be the best mum that I can be for them. I couldn’t have wrote this blog post during March so I am hoping I am coming out the other side now and April will be so much better.
Since I took part in Red January this year I have run every other day during February and March and I have lost a stone since Christmas so I am still looking after my physical health thankfully while I’ve been feeling crap… although naughty food habits have started to slip back in during the last week or two which I need to put a stop to otherwise that is going to make me feel even worse if I start putting weight back on.
Anyway this post was basically just to say hi, I’m still here, I’ve been struggling a bit but today I’m feeling OK and I’m hoping it continues 🙂