Posted on April 1, 2019

Life Lately…

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I’m not going to lie I’ve been finding life pretty hard lately, my mood has been so low and I’ve been a nightmare to live with… I’m not sure how James has managed to put up with me! Because of this I have really not had the will to blog much at all… I’ve been finding it so hard to sit and write, my head has just been so full of darkness that I just couldn’t find the words. But this morning I have managed to find a bit of light so here I am.

You might have noticed that I stopped doing the 365 project and made my personal Instagram account private because Boo has got to the age now where she really doesn’t want her life shared so I have had to respect that. The 365 project was such a huge part of my life and the blog that it has really stopped me in my tracks a bit. I was going to just completely stop blogging at one point but I love it too much for that. This blog will be 9 years old in September this year and I think I would be lost without it.

Spring is usually my most favourite time of year so I am really going to try and focus on that and all of the positive things happening in my life right now because it really isn’t bad and I really shouldn’t be feeling like I have been.

Yesterday was Mother’s Day and Liam (my oldest) surprised me with a visit which really just made my day! I was treated like a Queen really for the whole of the day by James and all of the kids. I have a wonderful family and I really need to try hard to get myself out of this dark place so I can be the best mum that I can be for them. I couldn’t have wrote this blog post during March so I am hoping I am coming out the other side now and April will be so much better.

Since I took part in Red January this year I have run every other day during February and March and I have lost a stone since Christmas so I am still looking after my physical health thankfully while I’ve been feeling crap… although naughty food habits have started to slip back in during the last week or two which I need to put a stop to otherwise that is going to make me feel even worse if I start putting weight back on.

Anyway this post was basically just to say hi, I’m still here, I’ve been struggling a bit but today I’m feeling OK and I’m hoping it continues 🙂

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15 Comments

  • Reply Tina @ girlsgospel.com May 1, 2019 at 12:10 pm

    Sending big love! Yours was one of the first blogs I read way back when! You got me through many a 3am feeding session!

    • Reply Sonia May 1, 2019 at 9:54 pm

      Awww thanks so much lovely. That means a lot x

  • Reply Melanie williams April 3, 2019 at 3:06 pm

    Aw so glad that you were treated like a Queen on Mothers day sounds like you needed it and deserved it too xx

  • Reply Amy - All about a Mummy April 3, 2019 at 2:55 pm

    Sorry to hear you have been feeling low. We all have moments like this so try not to be too hard on yourself. Well done on the fitness that’s a great achievement

  • Reply Laura Dove April 1, 2019 at 11:01 pm

    Sorry to hear you have been struggling, I’ve been going through the same. I find this time of year hard somehow, or just life in general at times. Lots of love. xx

  • Reply Lyndsey OHalloran April 1, 2019 at 8:18 pm

    Sorry to hear you’re having a bit of a rough time. I hope this month is better.

  • Reply Charlotte - Mama Makes Do April 1, 2019 at 7:39 pm

    Hey lovely, I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time. Mental health is so tough and totally empathize with falling off of a health kick (I’m a huge comfort eater). I’ve found bullet journalling really helps my down days; I have a page where I write down one good thing that has happened that day. When I’m having a rough day like today I look back through the pages and see actually how many good things have happened 🙂 xxx

  • Reply Kim Carberry April 1, 2019 at 7:20 pm

    Sending big hugs!
    I am so sorry you have been struggling. I hope you feel happier soon x

  • Reply Anita Faulkner - Brazen Mummy Writes April 1, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    So sorry to hear you haven’t been feeling great, but glad things are starting to look brighter. Hopefully you’ll find something even better to replace your 365 project. Keep up the brilliant blogging and take care. Xx

  • Reply Talya Stone April 1, 2019 at 6:39 pm

    I know what you mean – I have been feeling the same lately! Hope the mood abates soon. Keep up the running as that will do you the world of good!

  • Reply Hannah Goode April 1, 2019 at 4:15 pm

    Glad you’ve popped back on, I understand how you feel I’ve really ditched a lot of things I love due to depression I’ve been having trouble since February again. I hope you’re coming out the other side, it’s great you’ve managed to keep doinf your running. I’m lucky my kids don’t mind about my blogging still but they do feature less on IG. There are clever ways of having them there but not there if that makes sense. Sarah for mum of 3 world is opening up her blog too if anyone wants to write anon or just not on their own blog now the kids are growing up!x

  • Reply Jenni April 1, 2019 at 3:55 pm

    Sorry to hear you’ve been having a touch time. Glad you’ve decided to keep going.

  • Reply Jon April 1, 2019 at 1:50 pm

    Sounds like you’ve been going through a lot. I think you’ve made the right decision to keep the blog going! Especially as it’s 9 years old!

  • Reply Sabina Green April 1, 2019 at 12:13 pm

    Really sorry to hear you have been going through tough times but it’s great that you have still been running. It’s a shame you don’t live closer to us as you could have come along to Karins’s Imperfectly Happy workshops which are really helping so many ladies in a similar position. Pop along to her Facebook page or drop her a message as I am sure she would be happy to give you some tips online xxx

  • Reply msedollyp April 1, 2019 at 11:13 am

    Hey hun, know its hard to fight sometimes. I have suffered so much in the last 5-6 years with perimenopause, it took me a long time to accept that was the reason for my moods.maybe its worth a visit to docs to see if you need any help fighting. Keep safe and KEEP RUNNING!!

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