I’m really struggling at the moment, desperately unhappy and can’t seem to shake it!
My get up and go has got up and gone and I don’t know how to get it back.
I’m having trouble finding me…
Since my baby started school in September I have time to be me.
Yet I don’t know who I am or what I want to do.
Lero turned 18 yesterday.
I’ve been a Mum for 18 years, since I was just 19.
All I ever wanted to be was a Mum.
I can’t have anymore babies although I would desperately like one.
My sparkle has gone.
I’m so sad and grumpy.
I could cry all day.
I want to be happy and sparkly!
I don’t know how to find that again?
I don’t know what I want to do.
I can’t stay at home anymore.
I am so lonely.
I need to be out of the house working with people.
I just don’t know where to start because my get up and go has got up and gone.
The only thing I am good at is being a mum.
Most days I am crap at that.
I’m letting my kids down and I’m letting myself down.
I need to stop feeling sorry for myself but I just don’t know how.
Healthy eating has gone out of the window and I’m getting fat again.
Spiralling out of control, the more I eat the worse I feel!
It’s a never ending circle and I just can’t stop!
Come back sparkle!
COME BACK PLEASE!!!!!