Giving Up!

So in my post ‘Enough is Enough’ the other day I mentioned that the nicotine patches would be going on today so I thought I’d give an update of how I’ve got on!

I’ve never used nicotine patches before, I’ve given up twice before and both times had a prescription from the doctors. The first time was fine, I gave up for about 3 years and then we went out one day and my other half had a fag and that was that…

The second time was last January (2012) and the drugs sent me bloody crazy, I didn’t really feel any benefit. I craved like mad and was very depressed. I stopped for only a few months!

This time is different! Much different! I hate smoking, every single drag I have I hate! I hate how angry I get when I haven’t had one for a couple of hours. It doesn’t ease my stress it makes me far worse. When I smoke I’m nasty and I hate it! This time I have no intention of smoking ever again! Today has been ok; I’ve had a few moments where I think ‘I’ll just go and have a fag’ stop in my tracks and think ‘shit!’ but I’m just busying myself and I really am determined!

So here’s to a happy, healthy, smoke free future because this time I’m serious!