I weighed myself this morning and I feel like such a failure. I have put on 4 pounds over Christmas I’m not sure what I expected really I suppose I thought I could get away with it is whilst I was working out so hard; it is funny really because I have never felt so fit in all my life and up until this morning when I weighed myself I felt incredible I wish now that I hadn’t weighed myself! But at least I know that I’m going in the wrong direction so I can do something about it
Finding my inner girl is going very slowly. I’ve been pretty unhappy recently about myself this is never a good time to start shopping etc. I do have a plan to start a new healthy eating regime next Monday and hopefully when I’ve lost a bit of weight and I continue to workout I’ll start to feel better again and then I’ll concentrate on beautifying myself. I know there isn’t an end point and this is always going to be a continuous battle and I somehow have to accept that and try to make the most of what I’ve got! I think that’s the hard part for me; it’s like finding happiness, it isn’t a destination it is our frame of mind which should always be there! I think that’s what I’m trying to say, or if it isn’t you’ll understand maybe lol
I have no one to blame but myself I know it’s me who is the problem, I’m not trying to make excuses for myself I love food, I eat too much food and I find it very difficult not to eat nice food; I’m not trying to blame anyone else, or my health I’m just greedy. End of story!
It’s the hardest battle that I’ve ever had to fight!
I am really really going to try this new regime and I will be updating this blog every week to tell you about my journey and just to keep a journal for myself! Hopefully I’ll sort myself out and get a bit of confidence to go on a massive shopping spree and treat myself to some lovely new clothes. It doesn’t help having a toddler around 24/7; it makes it impossible to go shopping, to the hairdressers etc Maxwell starts nursery in September so hopefully I’ll have a little bit more time for me and concentrate on being a woman as well as a Mum.
One thing I have kept on doing is getting my nails done… I love having pretty nails! This week I opted for blue with glitter tips! Not exactly how I wanted them to turn out but they do look nice 🙂 Think I’ll just stick with French next time though!