I can’t stand it any more!! I’m sick of me, I hate myself! I wish I could hide myself away and just stay there!
I hate dressing myself, I hate going out, I hate how I look, what I wear, I hate how I have just undone all my hard work!
I’m smoking AGAIN!
I’m fat AGAIN!
I’m unhealthy AGAIN!
STOP! JUST STOP THE WORLD I WANT TO GET OFF!
I need focus, I need control and I need organisation in my life and I have none of it… most days just go by in a total blur of getting up, sorting the kids and going to bed!
I need to pull myself together!
I need to get a grip!
Monday is the day…
The nicotine patches go on.
The day I sign up to Weight Watchers
and the day Gillian comes out of the cupboard and kicks my fat ass back into shape!
I will not put up with this shit ANYMORE!
Monday is the rest of my life!