Posted on September 18, 2012

Missing my Baby…

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I’m sat here in pieces worrying about Bugs; I know he will be fine but I am missing him so much! I left him sobbing his heart out at playgroup this morning; as soon as he saw the place he started crying.  My heart is aching for him and I am dying to just go and fetch him!

Love his cheeky little face 🙂

Bugs is my third child and I am finding it so much harder to leave him than I did the other two, it always upset me a little but I was strong and knew it was for their own good! I don’t know I think I am just having an emotional day, James is in Poland and I have no one to turn to so I’ve come here to get it off my chest. I know he will be fine and he will soon settle down and I know when I collect him he will be playing nicely, look up and see Mummy and run for a big hug and I really cannot wait for that hug!!!

I hate that I am not there for him, being the one to soothe him and make him feel better 🙁  I thought writing this would make me feel better but I’m sat here sobbing thinking about him. I know he’ll be running round like a little mad man having fun with his friends and I just need to bloody well man up!

Feel free to leave me a slap – going to try and get on with some work for an hour before I fetch him x

 

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  • Bex @ the mummy adventure September 19, 2012 at 11:36 pm

    I am dreading the day we have to go through this but unfortunately they just seem so intent on growing up! Hope it gets easier x

  • Amanda September 18, 2012 at 4:26 pm

    I was exactly the same with A when she started…I never thought I would get so stressed over it. I was lucky and deferred for a year and she adores it now. Which even though it’s still my baby growing up, it make it so much easier.
    So I completely get it. Keep going it will get easier, big hug xx

  • Dawnie Brown September 18, 2012 at 4:18 pm

    Consider yourself slapped sis! He’s fine and it will do him good to spend some time away from you. Make the most of the peace and if you’re really missing him then start sorting out your accounts for last year so I can get your tax return done 😛

    Seriously sis, he is fine x

  • lucy at dear beautiful boy September 18, 2012 at 1:52 pm

    Ahhh, bless you. And bless Maxwell too. I guess these transitions just take a little while to get used to, in honesty I’m dreading the day I have to let me little guy go off to nursery or preschool. But I’m sure you’ll all get used to it quickly. He’ll be having a fantastic time, and you’ll be getting some you time. But for now just feel free to have a good old cry, mummies are allowed to do that!!! x

  • Anne Stone September 18, 2012 at 1:03 pm

    Awww, I feel your pain. My little man has just started pre-school and goes 2 1/2 days a week. He is my last baby and I’m finding so hard to let him go, but I know it will be best for him, just as you know it will be best for Maxwell, just think of all the fun he’s having. I’ve vowed to make the time we do have together even more special rather than just routine, that way we both get best of both worlds.

  • Katie @mummydaddyme September 18, 2012 at 12:35 pm

    Oh lovely it is so hard leaving them. You are allowed to worry about him and of course it must be harder cause he is your third little bubba. The thing you have to remember is that it will be for his own good, eventually he will feel independant and will have fun.
    I work three days a week and leave Mads but I leave her with family friends and I don’t drop her off, Mr E does, so she doesn’t get clingy. She had always been a independent little thing but preschool is completely different- when the Time comes for us to do that I am sure it will be very different.

    Big hugs xxxxxxxx

  • Laura September 18, 2012 at 12:34 pm

    Aww honey, it was the same for me when Luke started but they used to physically have to peel him off me through him screaming. It took a good 6 weeks but now he loves it so much he asks to go everyday! (he only goes two afternoons a week) but he pleads with us!

    It will do you both good and think of all the lovely pictures he will be painting, just for mummy! Xxx

  • Kara September 18, 2012 at 11:52 am

    ps lovely to see you blogging about these things again, this is you, this is what made me fall in love with your blog and make me want to be your stalker xxx

  • Kara September 18, 2012 at 11:51 am

    Right Miss!!!! You listen to me, firstly you are one of the BEST mothers I know – fact and you know how much I chat on twitter so thats a LOT.
    You care for your babies incredibly well, so well in fact that is why Maxwell cried, he loves his Mama, but I promise you he will be great, this step is great for you both, you NEED some Sonia time, if only to work, it is hard, Grayson is off to preschool today and I don’t even get to take him, I have no idea whether he will like it, as he can’t tell me, hold in your heart that Maxwell will have fun, he will play and learn, he will make friends he may hold for life and all this is cause you are an amazing mama.
    You are allowed to worry, but don’t cry my sweet friend, go get the potatoes peeled for that yummy Sausage, Mash dinner, so that when you pick him up you can have some lovely cuddles instead of doing chores.
    Always here xxxxx

  • HELEN September 18, 2012 at 10:49 am

    aww bless him…and you, it’s so hard when they get upset isn’t it. Hopefully he will soon get used to it & you will be able to get on with things knowing that he’s really happy rather than just worrying about him. Big hugs xx

  • Jen aka The Mad House September 18, 2012 at 10:37 am

    I used to sob after dropping Mini off. I think there is a mindset at the moment that says it is OK to drop your children off and you should be glad of the time without them, but it was never the case for me. I didn’t actually start Mini at Preschool until 7 months after I could. He was just a baby, my baby!

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